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This fast is for a new furnace.  So I guess I will dub it as Fasting for Furnace.  We need a whole new unit and we have an all electric house.  It uses a heat pump so we are without heat or air conditioning.  Thank God the weather has not been too cold and not been unbearably hot.  The first estimate we received was for $8,000.  I do not have that kind of money.  I am planning to pray and fast.  This will be a bit of a challenge as my kids are on summer break and the temptations of wanting to indulge in all the summer treats.  I must stay strong and avoid the temptations.  I was thinking of taking my kids to see the movie "Up" but I don't know if I can resist the popcorn temptation.  I have to remind myself.  I am stronger than the food, and my God is stronger than anything I can fathom.  So I say Amen and stand strong on Day 1

Roamans 14

I fasted from January 28th until March 20th and lost 30 lbs.  I have since put about 8lbs back on.  I am debating to fast after Easter and go for 12 days, or maybe until the end of the month. 

Saturday started out really well in the morning, but then the family wanted to stop at Starbucks.  I requested a Naked Juice and then that set it off.  When we arrived home I was craving Beets and indulged in Beets and then while feeding the baby salmon, I helped her eat the remainder.  Then the family wanted pizza, more splurge, guilt and over doing it. Sunday, I ate as normal.  Then today, I over slept and had horrible dreams.  Maybe a contribution to eating all that horrid processed garbage.  (i.e. I mean pizza, the rest wasn't too too bad).  So I come into work and it's customer service appreciation week so they adorn us with sweets.  Home made pound cake, Lifesavers gummies, York Peppermint pattys, 3 Musketeers candy bar.  Confession, I ate it all.   I tried drinking my tea and lemon water concoction, but the office is freezing and I'm starving.  I go home for lunch and work out a little on the Wii Fit.  I induge in beet juice and beets, have sprouts and spinach.  The Wii says I have put on weight since yesterday.  (sigh).. I throw chicken breasts in the crockpot with marinara sauce for dinner.  This is a very tempting week, I am thinking I will not try to fast, but eat healthy and go extreme on the portion control.  Must catch up on reading my Bible and journaling.

I think that I am done nursing, yet I still have milk, not sure how much and don't want to chance nursing since I have consumed Gotu Kola Tea.  Baby is 16 mos and I am not her primary nutrition, but still do not want to take chances.  I will pray and read scripture and see where God wants me.  Fast or no fast. 

Me and husband are much, much, much, better.  Big, Loooonnnng Talk.  It was good. 

Prayer requests:

There is a man in my community that is very bad.  He has done bad things to children and yet there is no specific law to put him away.  He was supposed to be sentenced to jail 30 days ago, and yet he was able to appeal his case.  If my calculations are correct, his appeal would give him 30 days from September 8th, meaning he should have court this week.  I pray that justice is served and that this bad man is sentenced appropriately for the protection of our children in our community and that all can have peace of mind for beggar's night on October 31st. 

I feel absolutely fantastic.  I'm amazed at how alert I feel.  I am not hardly sleeping.  I've been going to bed around 10pm and each night I wake up at 3:00am as if that is all the sleep I need.  I have been laying there trying to go back to sleep but usually I don't drift bact until 4:45 or closer to 5:00am and that is when my clock goes off.  Initially I was doing this as the master cleanse with the lemonade, maple syrup thing, but I really hate that and I'm not even going to try the salt water flush.  I drank some smooth move tea and that was unexpected and I felt as if I'd gotten food poisoning. Therefore I'm sticking to my yogi tea. 

I feel very close to God.  My marriage still feels very shaky.  We are barely speaking still.  Last night I was making pasta and sauce for the family to eat. I overboiled the pasta and it turned to mush.  While trying to cook, the baby dumped an entire box of cereal onto the floor.  I yelled for my husband who had retreated to the basement to play video games.  The sauce is boiling over and so I put the destroyed pasta in the sink in a strainer and turn the heat off of the sauce.  I fetch our George foreman grill and decide to make burgers and chicken pattys.  I was going to bake french fries but they will take 15-20 minutes and I need food ready now.  So I microwave the baby baked potatoes from Market Day. Son makes salad for everyone.  I have tea and attempt to feed baby, baby is having picky eating moment and throwing an absolute fit.  This is exhausting. 

Scripture reading:  Luke,  

Still going strong.  Last evening I boiled rice for my daughter's dinner and when I drained the rice I drank the water mixed with my fasting tea. was that a cheat, did I break my fast?  Gosh I hope not  My daughter asked about my fast and hubby and I explained people do it to be closer to God.  She asked if she could do it.  I explained no, not at this time because God calls you to do it.  It is between you and God.  My husband explained, it's like when you and mom have personal girl talk, it's just between the two of you.  Good answer husband.  

  My son seemed to think I was biting his head off.  I didn't sense that I was.  I was just very direct. Didn't beat around the bush.  Also too though, I often have to ask my kids like 5 times before they do something.  So either i'm more focused and notice that they are not doing what I asked, or i'm really being a grump.  Hubby is still barely talking to me, but he hung out with the family instead of retreating to the basement to play on the computer.  It's kind of interesting.  I'm fasting from food and hubby is fasting from his computer.  Wonder how it's going for him? 

My hubby, son, and I had a good talk.  Seems like the son is not enjoying school and wants to play sick on a pretty regular basis.  Not sure if there is something else going on.  Tried to open up the floor to allow him to talk.  He seemed upset at my approach to asking him to do stuff, but claimed there was nothing else bothering him.

Husband made effort to kiss me goodnight, I was distracted by reading and he said, good night.  I kissed him good bye this morning, but nothing else is going on.  Need more Song of Solomon going on in my marriage. hmmmm.

Forgot the Tea tag from last night.  Today's tea tag is: "Love your Soul" 

Verses for today:   Luke 10:2   Matthew 1:18-2:23; Luke 2,

Okay really interesting.  I just made myself a cup of tea and the tea bag has this little motivation for each day.  I should have kept yesterdays because I can't remember it exactly but I think yesterday said something like

"Focus on being kind,"

Today's says "Love what is ahead by loving what has come before".  this is puzzling to me.  What has come before, before what? Love the future based on the past.  Love eternal life with Christ because he died for our sins. 

 I find it interesting that the scripture reading from yesterday   Song of Solomon 3:   makes reference to losing something and not being able to find it. 

Interpretation:  "Tell me where you lost the company of Christ and I will tell you the most likely place to find Him."

I feel pretty good, not hungry at all. Haven't consumed anything yet.  I look forward to brushing my teeth and enjoy it ALOT.  I have done a good bit of scripture reading and praying. 

Scripture: 

Song of Solomon 3:1

Job 23:10

John 1:1-18, Mark 1:1, Luke 1:1-4, 3:23-38, Matthew 1:1-17

Husband is barely speaking to me.  When I came home from work he did dishes and hung out in the kitchen while I cooked for him and baby.  I tried to conversate and his responses were very limited.  I did get him to speak a good bit about the scripture and asked him what is the purpose of all of the geneaology in the Bible.  "the begats" Fathers and sons.  Husband stated to show how old the earth is.  To show recorded history, that a certain event occurred at a certain time.  Okay, that makes sense.  He seems bored to death with me.  After dinner, I tidied up the remaining dishes and put them in the dishwasher.  He responded that it was his job.  I said I knew that but he had worked to clear the sink of all the dishes and I didn't want to undo what he just did. He said Whatever.  We played with the baby and read books to her.  I really had to force him to read books then we headed up to bed.  I rocked baby and fed her a bottle, i'm in the process of weaning her and all seems to be going well.  She hasn't asked and I haven't offered.  We last nursed on the 28th, and only for about 5 minutes on one side.  Once little one was asleep.  I headed to bed and began reading while husband showered and then he came to bed and read.  He kissed me when he came to bed and it was a little more than a peck but I felt strange because I went for longer and more and he pulled away.  Oh well...  How long will this go on? 

On my way to have some lemon juice, syrup and sprinkle of cayenne, will make a cup of tea as well, I thoroughly enjoy the tea.  It is made with Garcinia, Fennel Seed, Licorice Root, Cinnamon Bark, Red Clover, Alfalfa Leaf, Gotu Kola, English Hawthorne Berry, Cardamom Seed, Ginger Root, Burdock Root, Dandelion Root, Yellow Dock Root, Organic Clove Bud, Organic Black Pepper.  The tea is for fasting. 

I will have to use my lunch to pick my daughter up from school.  I will try to take a 20 minute break to do my reading

I am fasting for:

My marriage

My finances

My mother's health